the.new.blacklights.

2009-09-27T16:45:00.001+08:00

this cld very well be the last post here because
IM CHANGING TO TUMBLR!
YUP.
and it has only been 64 posts.
haha!
so here's the new url, pls relink!
http://miyako-blacklights.tumblr.com
i cnt think of any new nicer sounding link so i may change again..

2009-09-15T16:01:00.002+08:00

yay! im happy cos i bought my ice cream mochi at last. and its sooo much cheaper than sakae omg.
and they're exactly the same!!! WTF!! of course minus the PRETTY BOWL. HOR MEL? ECK? SHANSHAN? (a need to differentiate shan and huishan. so huishan is now shanshan. or u wan chuchu? no? didn think so. xD) hahahaha jk.
anyw im happy.
its a hot day...
poor skye boy.. i stepped on his tail by accident.
he screamed and ran away after that n i was apologizing n petting him.
but i guess its his retribution!! he was bullying precious, the shitzu, hu is old enough to be his mother or grandma.
i slept 2 hrs or less last night...
cos i slept over at suxann's!!
its been ages!
we watched mobtv the whole night then chatted for an hr before she fell asleep.
but i couldnt..
i was still tossin around and hoping that by petting precious' soft fur i would fall asleep sooner..
i gues i did manage to but it felt like i only slept 20mins or sth.
eyebags!! AAAAAAAHHH!!!
why is it so warm?!??!?!?!
i wanna go kbox!!
anyone?? ;D

There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.

2009-09-02T17:36:00.003+08:00

gosh dumb blogger... dunno wats wrong.
anyway..
teachers day just passed!
went back to secondary sch..
i love meeting ms wong.. she's like a friend rather than a teacher...
haha! however, received the sad news that mr chew is gonna leave nh..
darnnit.
one less teacher to visit, one less gd teacher in nh.
cos really, mr chew is a gd teacher. he has the patience and he really cares for his students, a total opposite of 'the-one-who-was-never-there-for-us' who was one maternity leave(again).
didn get to play a proper netball match tho. jus kept flinging balls at the net. and i have become rusty! within a month's time!
OMG!!why?!?!?
we caught teachers doing a stupid dance in the ava room. apparently they were rehearsing.
the female teachers(young n old) were in a line with FEATHER BOAS around them!!!
holy smoke!!
when they saw us peeping they were damn paiseh. HAHA!!
had a short chat wif rani.. told her tt i miss analysing stuff in literature! haha! now when i read off centre n to kill a mockingbird, i try to recall the whole lot abt symbolism, the blurring of the line between play n reality, jem is to maycomb as caterpillar is to coccoon, boo radley, the fire and snow etc....
LOLX! kinda miss it.
and ms rani's choice of sadistic poems.
taking a jog down memory lane now.
after that had a great time at sakae altho i blew my pri sch frens off ><
i cant upload the pictures!!
dammit!! >:-[

2009-08-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

hooray hols r here!!
=3
:3
=D
okok. -_-
and its that time of the year....
be careful people...
in its honour i shall put a link to same lovely halloween shots from 2 yrs ago
http://miyako-blacklights.blogspot.com/2007/12/wahaha.html
finally found them
unfortunately the rest of the fotos have vanished for good.
dunno whr's the mem card n the cd i burned them into.
darn it.
i want another halloween party!!!
so freaking fun!
haha!
went for a french manicure ytd...
i dun think the manicurist did a gd job.
-.-
then today went jp to look for formal wear...
i didn manage to buy any but nureen spamed 100+ on clothes!
wow man. all black too. u feelin emo darlin?
then call ur darlie! afterall he promises a whitening effect!
muahaha!
ok lame.
then i bought chester a jacket.
but its too small so tmr gotta exchange it again...
and i bought a top for meself.
seriously i need a job
my expenses will only rocket sky high this holiday.
i jus signed up at moe for a relief job.
people who wanna sign up
BEWARE the annoying form.
lol.
YAY shan is gonna book a chalet tmr!!
woots!
an ibz chalet *V*
now my cousin is hollering from his room "who's tha man?!"
he's playing some game wif his fren..
its 11plus!
guys seriously have all the freedom jus cos they're guys!
its so unfair! girls can take care of themselves too!!
teachers day! monday!
can see chewy n wongwongwong n rani!!
=D

2009-08-14T12:46:00.001+08:00

oh no one mre week to exams!
im not ready!!!!!!
im lookin forward to the holidays man.. its like 7 weeks!!!
7 weeks of working, sleepovers, n time for enjoyment.
woohoo!!
but so sad tt theres no more S&W
im reli in love with netball now.
<3<3<3
mayb i shall join the netball cca???
and whats wrong with blogger?
why cant i upload photos????????
anyw i reli wanna go kbox again!!!
it was so freaking fun the last time:
http://victorina.blogspot.com/2009/08/audreyyeos-birthday-celebration.html
but it was a sad national day for me..
past two yrs hav been gg to the padang to soak in the atmosphere.
but this yr... stuck at home.......
couldn even go to lena's place with every1 else.=(
THANKS SOOO VERY MUCH, FINALS!
THANKS TO YOU, I MISSED OUT!
BUT NVM! HOLS R COMING! IN ABT 2WEEKS!!!
WOOOOTS!!

2009-08-03T12:58:00.002+08:00

omg. what have i started?! HAHA.
amazing, ppl actually know who im talking abt.
seriously, on the outside it seems like everyone loves him tho.
ok mayb not LOVE but as in like, ok he's a nice guy.
umm.. i tink ur attitude shld reli adjust. dunno wad2 say.
but given ur lack of diplomacy, i'd say business is not for you. hmm.
hi joey n krystalle. o.o lol!!
ah joey is leaving the course..
well gd luck! dun forget the pioneers of IBZ.
LOL -.-

ahem.
lol mr c is like presenting now.
the bike dispensing thing is like coincidentally what me him n my best fren discussed abt months ago, whn we went skating at east coast.
LOL.
are ppl shooting qns on purpose?
hmmmmmmm.
omg lester jus spoke.
HAHA, im like a live reporter. lala!
yay go krystalle!
i see ur hand! hahahahahaha!
"yea umm is there any maintenance?"
"yea blahblahblahblah"
lol.
so many ppl shooting qns.
hmm
never ending firing squad! is this soo deliberate??
ooo krystalle again.
ho humm..
ok the firing squad has died down....
....but mr c starts up again.....
"..so u put the bicycle and put at pasir ris then take the taxi home lah!"
*laughter*
wats wif mr c n taxis?

well i'd give it to him tt he can talk lah. lol.
** see the disclaimer 2 posts ago

2009-07-28T09:45:00.002+08:00

how much longer do i have to tolerate.
i alrd have this super bad impression since week 2 or 3 of sch. then now im actually experencing it all first hand.
ah i dun care lah im not going for bmgt today.
i've gt cats n stats to do!
why do we need to gather tgt to do our indiv scripts????
dun care.
unless they doing it in sch then mayb i can meet for awhile before meeting kevin to go home since i gotta wait for him anyw.
SIAN.
itb without audrey is so directionless.
woo n lena lent me the comics!! <3
i didn knw gt like 6 books.. o.o
and today came to sch in martin's car..
realised that ppl do read my blog.
hi you guys, pls leave a tag.
haha. and pls be discreet abt my blog esp all the stuff regarding a fictional mr c. =]

2009-07-27T17:33:00.003+08:00

oh gosh jap writing test later~
anyw i put knn as a personal msg...
it was becos of mr c again...
but nvm i lazy type abt him.
jus nw i was on fb then alfred came talk to me.
"what happened? can daddy botak help?"
LOLLL
then i jus tell him abt the stupid projs that is drowning me... and somehow our conv drifted to aikido.
we started talking abt shinju-kai n aikido n politics in shinju-kai...
in his words "Start my own dojo? Sensei will kill me lah
hahahaha"
and when i said, become instructor lah, he said "hahahaha... that is the line i do not want to cross
too many politics there. just be a leader and pay my fee and train"
then i said walau they are all seriously old children, still play politics, he said "Sensei can be a super old children too u know.well.. I am a dun care leader
just do my job and follow the rules... rest of it??? Dun know and dun care"

cushioned frm all the shit. gdgd.

ah well if he reli has a dojo i'll go haha. at least i'll be away frm freaks like eric. -.-

2009-07-26T13:27:00.001+08:00

ok fine i shall blog.
ok i was talking abt the stats test in the last post right?
and i thot i would die...
but no!!!! ;D
i got 52 outta 60!!
miracle!!
at first i thot i took the wrong paper, becos like no way!
but then turns out, i only made one careless mistake, then the rest of the marks deducted was due to the fill in the blanks part. like WOW.
joy to the world.
highest is krystalle again of cos. she got 57.
whn yee wen asked me for my marks i said 52,then she said "WTF? U SCAM ME! YOU WERE SLEEPING INSTEAD OF STUDYING FOR THE TEST BEFORE THAT!" well true.
tts y its a miracle.
but i choose to believe im smart.
HEE.

anyw i wanna rant now.
#1FUCK U PPL. JUS BECOS HE'S GOT A CAR NOW U GUYS WANNA BE FRENS??
ok fine mayb nt all of them were liddat, but mr c, u changed too fast ba??
it was all smiles for mr c whn we got off the car.
before that, wat, u found him stupid and ignored him?
hmmmm how farking SHALLOW are u???

#2 mr c, becos of ur lame shitness, i ended up stabbing my own finger and bleeding while trying to push ur hand away. u WOULD say it was my fault, that i could've jus SAT THERE N TOLERATE WATEVER NONSENSE U WERE DOING TO MY LAPTOP, ALTHOUGH U REPEATEDLY DID IT FOR LIKE 3 TIMES. yea i shld farking tolerate n farking jus smile it off right. how abt if i kept pressing f11 on ur precious mac while u were trying to do stuff? and then nvm, whn i realised i was bleeding, u started laughing and childishly pointing "hey look tt guy is laughing at u, oh look tt guy too" -.-lll

seriously.

of cos my face was like damn black aft tt. luckily u left earlier. cannot imagine another extra 3 hrs with u in starbucks.
oh, mr c, mayb u shld totally adjust the attitude? cos ur reputation is going down the toilet, FYI. the wolves have been talking. im just saying this outta the kindness of my heart.

i truly hope u r rethinking ur future. i hope u will decide to drop out of IB and go to NAFA instead. mayb the arts people have a larger capacity to tolerate you.

ugh.

this grouping will not happen. ever. again.

DISCLAIMER**the above is a work of fiction. any resemblance to events or parties living or dead is purely coincidental***

2009-07-17T10:37:00.002+08:00

Okaeri Lyrics

haha how long have i not blogged.

yes the stats test was utter rubbish.

firstly....

do they really trust that all of us have 100% integrity?

we are so bloody close im sure gt many ppl cheat.

and then they give dumb questions where we have to fill in the blanks.

12 marks, mind you.

i tink i may fail T_T

GAHHHHH...

ok not gonna think abt that......

and IBZ supposed to be godly compared to other courses. HAH!

yeah right.

unless we r all like krystalle n jiahuan n nureen...

superhumans.

ho.

one is a natural all rounder, one mugs like noone's business and enjoys it, and one is hardworking.

sigh.

which leaves me nowhere.............

and tt day chong aik was asking around ppl's psle score.

and i come to one conclusion: i get lazier n dumber as time passes while others get smarter.

2009-06-22T13:04:00.005+08:00

at mac now... supoosed to study econs.
i'll get on it in a minute.
sighs.. hope is a dangerous thing...
especially when deep down you knw that it is impossible.
and wat u reli want has already been given to someone else.
you see it with your own eyes and hear it first hand.
its enough to make the rest of your day suck.
im not the shiniest star nor the nicest blossom so of course i knw i'll never get wat i want.
i was on my way out of this trap that i crawled out of a year ago.. but i let a sliver of hope pull me right back in.
now i really want to get out fast.
and yet i mayb wanna stay in the hole.

and this song seems to express these feelings well
self-inflicted by katy perry

Remember when I dove into the crowd
And I got a bloody knee under my skin
A mark from wiping out
It brings back the memories

Every bone's been broken
But my heart is still wide open

I can't stop, don't care if I lose
Baby, you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted

I'm going down in flames for you
Baby, you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I'm addicted to

With each scar there's a map
That tells a story, what a souvenir of
Young love's like jumping out an airplane
Riding a tidal wave on an ocean of emotion
My heart rips me wide open

I can't stop, don't care if I lose
Baby, you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted

I'm going down in flames for you
Baby, you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I'm addicted to

And I cover up these scars
We'll make it, we'll make it but we break it
And I can't stop seeing stars
Let's hope not die whenever you're around
Around

I can't stop, don't care if I lose
Baby, you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted

I'm going down in flames for you
Oh, you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I'm addicted to, oh

No, I can't stop
Oh, I can't stop
No, I can't stop

And I'm going out in flames
Oh, I'm going down in flames
Baby, you are the weapon I choose
Baby, you are the weapon I choose

and now a song i like:

thinking of you- katy perry

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go?
I guess second best
Is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you, thinking of you
What you would do if you were the one
Who was spending the night?
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center

How do I get better?
Once I've had the best
You said there's tons of fish
In the water, so the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth, oh
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

'Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you, thinking of you
What you would do if you were the one
Who was spending the night?
Oh, I wish that I was looking into

You're the best, and yes I do regret
How I could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know

'Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you, thinking of you
What you would do if you were the one
Who was spending the night?
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes
Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes

Oh, won't you walk through
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay

and now photos!!

these are like a week before common test i think. before i permed:

monkey!!

muakz best fren! <3>

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

2009-06-15T17:50:00.002+08:00

jus came back from a movie with suxann and kingsley.
we watched drag me to hell!!
it was disturbing at times, but hilarious during some.
plus the ppl in the cinema were funny.
when we all anticipated sth gonna happen, u can hear the murmurs swoop through the room.
then there's one part the boyfriend asked her " who did this to you?"
then these bunch of ppl behind us said" the banglas."
spoil atmosphere can?
me and suxann were giggling like maniacs..
anyw, another part where the whole cinema laughed was when she said "here kitty kitty"
-.-
it seemed wrong somehow.
and the graphics were very artificial at times.
but the last part was the most real and freaky.
and sad, cos the guy was gonna propose to her n evrything, and they thought everything was fine n dandy. (though frm the start i could guess that the envelope she took was the one with the coin.) she gets dragged to hell right before his eyes; her skin disintigrating to nothing..
ugh.
i bet im gonna be traumatised for 3days.

2009-06-01T13:21:00.002+08:00

no bcomm!
instead im at our space.
i think im skipping jap tonight to go mug and work on itb.
right now im having an msn conv wif kingsley.
haha damn funny.

Kingsley says:
when is our picture coming out !!
❤ ・V・・・・・・・・・ｽ・ｵ・ﾍJAE・ﾌ・ﾆ・・・ﾅ・ｷ;D cherry blossom obsession! //・・ﾆ12??// says:
HAHA i was gonna ask you
but andrea not sending us the photos...
=(
thats the saddest part
Kingsley says:
heh ..
yea i know . probably they burn the picture .. gets fed up of see-ing my face
❤ ・V・・・・・・・・・ｽ・ｵ・ﾍJAE・ﾌ・ﾆ・・・ﾅ・ｷ;D cherry blossom obsession! //・・ﾆ12??// says:
LOL
mayb they realised they shldn encourage young couples so they burn our couple pic -.-
Kingsley says:
LOL
yea thats probably it ..
and also .. they don't wanna encourage guys flirting with 2 girls .. so they burn the group pic .
too*
❤ ・V・・・・・・・・・ｽ・ｵ・ﾍJAE・ﾌ・ﾆ・・・ﾅ・ｷ;D cherry blossom obsession! //・・ﾆ12??// says:
HAHAHAHAHA!
they dun encourage SCANDALS
and GAYISM
Kingsley says:
hahaha .

seriously they havent come out.....
but i think the couple one will probably come out nxt yr on valentines' day =]
im gonna bug andrea soon...
totally cant wait for the hols.
but no one is bothering to go book the bloody chalet!
not even uncle liong who is having holidays NOW.
wtf.........
if it fails whose fault is it then.
oh wait.
now kingsley is telling me i wont be able to book a chalet on the 16th D:

Kingsley says:
nah i doubt .
you got chalet on 16 ?
❤ ・V・・・・・・・・・ｽ・ｵ・ﾍJAE・ﾌ・ﾆ・・・ﾅ・ｷ;D cherry blossom obsession! //・・ﾆ12??// says:
um trying to plan one
why u doubt??
haha
normally if u like some1 no matter what the person give u will love it
Kingsley says:
well .. i think you wont be able to book one
❤ ・V・・・・・・・・・ｽ・ｵ・ﾍJAE・ﾌ・ﾆ・・・ﾅ・ｷ;D cherry blossom obsession! //・・ﾆ12??// says:
y????
Kingsley says:
because the chalet is for ppl who came from oversea .. because of swine
❤ ・V・・・・・・・・・ｽ・ｵ・ﾍJAE・ﾌ・ﾆ・・・ﾅ・ｷ;D cherry blossom obsession! //・・ﾆ12??// says:
uhh
nono
not all
Kingsley says:
i'd try to book one
❤ ・V・・・・・・・・・ｽ・ｵ・ﾍJAE・ﾌ・ﾆ・・・ﾅ・ｷ;D cherry blossom obsession! //・・ﾆ12??// says:
the one at east coast isnt
Kingsley says:
they don't allow
err no
XD
❤ ・V・・・・・・・・・ｽ・ｵ・ﾍJAE・ﾌ・ﾆ・・・ﾅ・ｷ;D cherry blossom obsession! //・・ﾆ12??// says:
?
no wad?
Kingsley says:
the one i tried to book its at down town
maybe east coast can ba ..
hah
❤ ・V・・・・・・・・・ｽ・ｵ・ﾍJAE・ﾌ・ﾆ・・・ﾅ・ｷ;D cherry blossom obsession! //・・ﾆ12??// says:
orh

hmm i hope it will be a success... or at least have an outing?
uncle liong wants a tan! xDDD

2009-05-22T18:08:00.006+08:00

messing around with photoshop (:

lena with grandma sharapova hiding frm camera

see why cnt u guys be spontaneous like yee wen?

aww pity cnt see cheryl's cool haircut

nureen!

martin -.-

me n vanessa on the bus to the museum. im wearing raj's hat o.o

what can be considered neoprints during our forefather's time.

used for editing photos by controlling how much light falls on a portion of the photo

LOVE TANK

cute jewelry box

record player

super cool gadget we all had when we were at the museum

lunch at SIM.

creative me at work! ;D

minnie mouse!

mickey mouse!!

cover face with knife. shy lah

ah the cake has a correct no of candles now. before that it had 10 candles, meaning im 19YRS OLD.

finally tryin nt to be camera shy

2009-05-22T17:53:00.002+08:00

zzz while doing itb proj i could barely keep my peepers open.
dunno lah this week quite hectic. O.O
but at least nxt wk is elearning and i can get some revision done (i hope?)
common test is coming soon!!!
AAAAAAAAA.
i dun wanna screw myself up bt i reli no energy to go study everythin.
anyw the previous post was jus a good outlet to flush shit out of my mind.
hooray im ok now. =]
super embarrassing for cats today.
we had to present and they had to use my laptop.
before i got to the teacher's table i alrd adjusted the com screen to the slideshow.
and then we had problems making the powerpoint appear on the screen and God knows wat harrison pressed, cos the nxt thing we knew, the powerpoint was cropped and my windows sidebar popped up.
GAWWW!
i have like a whole photo slideshow running, so my photos are flashed to all in the room.
and my notes which is part of the sidebar also popped up. like wtf can?
in case u wondering why thats a bad thing, refer to previous slide. all that and more are in my notes. SO DELETING THE NOTES NOW.
anyw thats nt the worst.
i frantically exited the sidebar and tried to click the powerpoint slides to make it bigger and instead of becoming bigger it MINIMIZED.
and all could see that i had restaurant city running.
"ORHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" went everyone.
"oh who was playing?"ms sabrina said. shit i scared she minus points.
raj: " ohh charlene you right?"
i quickly got the stupid slideshow back on track.
"ahem lets not be distracted! can alrd!" i said with forced innocence.
sighs. bye sidebar and thanks to the idiot who made me have so much rubbish inside of me that i had to let it out in such an outlet.
wheee nxt tuesday! mahjong and bbq! woots! <3

2009-05-20T14:24:00.002+08:00

itb now. so boring...

here comes a flood of randomness.

who are you, that you have the power to rock my boat, kick up the tide and take my sunshine?
why do i like to press the playback button?worst scenarios are repeated though i laugh. and it hurts.
how could i fall into the same trap that i just crawled out of a year ago?
i guess its what i get for wishful thinking.shoulda never let u enter my door

yuck. i hate being like this. i want my carefreeness back.

2009-05-01T17:50:00.002+08:00

yay few mre hrs to my birthday!!!
but it has alrd been eventful.
today altho it was a holiday, i had to crawl up at 7am to go for CIP.
but we were let off early n went to lot1.
we had problems deciding whr to go for lunch.
but we went to kfc.
then martin n lester went to the toilet, leaving me cheryl n nureen by ourselves.
at some point, nureen was like " let me out pls i need to make a private call."
i was thinking huh wad private call yo?
but anyw we went to newyork new york instead.
we sat in a booth first cos the guys were still not back frm the toilet.
since i alrd ate prata before tt i didn order anything cos i was stil full.
food came n we ( minus me) started eating.
martin said they forgot their fries.
me: "you ordered fries meh? i thot onli these two?"
martin: "serious, im serious lester n i want our fries."
so they left the table to go remind the forgetful waitress.
when they came back, a waiter cleared our table.
i wanted to ask him like where were my fren's fries but i decided not to.
thank God i didn.
cos the "fries" turned out to be a birthday cake!
i mean i saw the indian waitress carry a cake with candles but i didn register anything at all.
i thot it was for someone else. lol.
anyw she said " ok who's the birthday girl?"
and i was shocked.
SHOCKED.
i tink i repeated OMG for dunno how many times.
and we realised there were 19 candles instead of 17. LOL
then cheryl nureen n martin were snapping photos.
but i was too shocked to pose (HAHA!) properly.
plus i had my ugly specs on. -.-
then they sing birthday song but i was still shocked cos i couldn believe they knw my birthday.
i said my wish out loud " i wish to go to korea to find mr jae"
xDD
i stil rmb stupid martin's words aft i blew the candles.
"eee now ur breath is on the cake"
"then u dun eat lor "
i thot the happy birthday thingy on the cake was made of white choc.
till i put it in my mouth n realised it was all sugar...
haha.
martin finished half the cake himself. O.O
yea anyw thanks u guys! =]
n thx nureen for the arcade treat! HAHA!!! i have a cute blister on my right pointer right now due to the last shoooting game we played.
then i went to suxann's place.
i told her wad happened and how stupid i was to not make the link wif the cake at first glance.
suxann:"you last year also like that lor! every year so blur!"
anyw, we're going to sakae now.
to celebrate.
haha.
but miss lim is still messing with the hair curler.
lol she reli need not bother she's pretty enough la!
;]

oh yes on wed me xann kingsley n kevin went to pastamania after collecting our lovely swensens voucher!!
YAYYY!!
omg its so nice to see kingsley again n thank God for msn n friendster!!!
it was fun n it made me feel like it was the holidays all over again.. sighs.. bliss.
but kevin n suxann cannot stop arguing while me n kingsley exchanged the one-eyebrow-up-one eyebrow-down look.
and then kevin started flirting with kingsley. LOL.
we couldn finish the last two slices of pizza cos it was quite dry n sian n we were full.
when r our fotos coming out?!?!?!?!?!
y r they taking so long?!
reli gotta go ask vincent again man...
or andrea..
kingsley said he asked andrea and she siad "soon."
oh yes thats real helpful.
=.=
lol miss lim is nt done with the curling iron yet.
lalala.
ok shall go off now...
[:

2009-04-19T17:40:00.002+08:00

urgh its the last day of freedom.
haha... =(
two days ago went ecp wif xann to skate.
skated from mac to god knws whr....
it was far!!!!
then met smashing rockers at mac.
then yida n some guy frm brunei [i didn get his name =x] went to rent skates so we all went to skate..
again.
suddenly i notuced yida beside me wobbling unsteadily.
and suddenly he appeared infront of me n there was no time to stop!
the collision, as they say, was inevitable.
arigato gozaimashita.
so i scraped my elbow n knee.
at least iit wun leave a scar n add to my collection of scars.
suddenly two mre ppl joined us. one on skates the other on bike..
then went to the jetty to rest awhile.
many ppl fishing.
talked n watched the brunei guy put propolis on his ulcer. OUCH.
my condolences. ^^
saw a jellyfish drift with the tide.....
listened to brunei guy abt his frens and jellyfish.
continued on...
skate until very far then turned back.
thrilling slopes!
wooooo~
and the ponytail guy has tattoos yo!
one skull on his chest n wings on his back
O.O
reached home at 9 plus.
jus enough time to shower n watch ghost whisperer..
hehe.
nxt day body ache like siao.
-.-
still aching, even now.
jus not as bad.

and sch tmr!
meeting at 10 then go for cca fiesta...
then lessons frm 12-4.
and jap from 6-8.
kinda excited! =]

2009-04-13T15:14:00.002+08:00

alrighty time for update...
wat haf i been doing........
hmm.
oh yes mon 6apr went sentosaaaaaaaaaa
ches plus some maple guild ppl[eck n hs's side]
lots of little critters in the sea.
swam in sea for first time; used to be scared of some loch ness monster somewhr down under.
or sth equally horrifying.
tues to thurs is baoc.
smashing rock 4 yea!
bouncybouncy smacksmack
rockers give u heart attack
bouncybouncy smacksmack
other groups they suck so bad!
made frens n realised laura is in same course n grp as me!
super surprised to see her.
went home n check timetable.
holy muthafuck. 11hrs in sch on mondays!!!!!!!!!
WHYYYY.
now i cnt take aikido as cca unless i transfer class.
fri go church wif xann.
watch easter drama then go frm joo koon to paya lebar to remove hair extensions.
suxann added more. 100 strands more.
looks gd.
cnt w8 for my hair to grow longer so i can go perm too.
the ppl in the hair extension salon are like old school ahlians... prob malaysian....
wanted to go watch 17 again.
took 67 frm paya lebar to cck.[holy long trip wif the smallest seats ever]
then realised from nick tt 17again is nt showing yet.
darn.
decided to watch handsome suit or knowing.
reached cck at last! freezing bus.
check movie times... the nxt knowing is in 15 mins.
ah, screw knowing.
we go eat ajisen!!!!
=DD
the waiters all cant pronounce the jap stuff.
wat the say sounds like a total garbled mess like the sounds helen keller makes.
then wasted a lot of time at a video store.
kept wanting to buy a lot but resisted.
go home.
yay.
received letter from swensens regarding collection of vouchers.
anyone wan a treat?
sat went to summer palace restaurant to celebrate grandma's bdae.
eat like no one's business.
cousins running around. uncle tied the napkin around cousin's neck, exciting him very much bcos now he's jus like superman.
cousins crawl under table, much to our embarrassment. o.o
aft tt go bugis.
bought a pair of pretty sandals from charles n keith.<3
sun...
rot at home.
brush up on jap.
revise revise.
today
sent casey off to NS in pulau tekong
woken up by grandma.
was contemplating nt to go due to exhausion from sleeping late.
but was tinking tt i shld go send him off, afterall he's a big bro to me and no way m i gonna go ever again anyw.
went in uncle's car to pasir ris.
took shuttle bus to the jetty, followed by ferry to the island.
walk walk walk.
sign points to left "parents".
sign points to right "enlistees".
in casey's words "parents this way, sad muthafuckas that way"
lol
we visitors get the tour...
boring.
then head to auditorium for a presentation and the pledge of watever.
damn funny.
aft drifting in n out of sleep for like 5 mins, its time for the pledge of wateva.[forgot the name la but all new enlistees gt2 say it]
"raise ur right hand"
pledge flashes on screen
commander:"i,"
enlistees: "i"
commander:" nric no"
enlistees: "S #%%&^*(&%$@$"
*giggles*
*silence*
commander: "full name"
enlistees: " ^&W%^$%@%$^DHT*R%^WR"

and so on.
damn hilarious. like dunno wat they all saying. o.o

then go for lunch. got to try army food.
i say 6.5/10?
intercom: "please to not take the muslim food unless u r muslim. thank you."
o.o"'
intercom: "please place all muslim food trays to your right, and the non muslim food trays to your left. thank you."
*********
intercom: "please place all muslim food trays to your right, and the non muslim food trays to your left. thank you."
*********
intercom: "please place all muslim food trays .."
casey : "to your right"
intercom: "and the non muslim food trays ..."
casey: "to your left"
rolls eyes.
the way the fellow says it is damn gay.
intercom: "dear parents, your sons will be leaving the canteen now, so please bid your farewells."
=(
me[clapping wif kc clapping along]: " we say bye bye. we say byebye. we say byebye we say byebye. we say bye...bye we say byebye. we say byebye we say byebye.. BYEBYE."
*silence*
me: " bu hao xiao."
and then its reli time to go.
looking arnd, its like kc is at least the ones wif a gd build.
the rest r quite toot.
haha...
so anyw here at my aunts hse now.
kc's room of cos, is vacant without him there.
even his punchbag is on the floor.
its hard to imagine tt he wun be there occupying the room for long periods of time.
oh well.
gd luck kc!!!
kiyosukete kudasai!!!!!!!!

my, wad a long post

2009-03-15T16:16:00.002+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMG
aaaaaaaaaaaHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
THEY JUS CALLED ME!!!!!!!
I GOT IT!!!!!
YAYAY
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OMG TUES TERMINAL 3 7AM-5.30PM...
BRING 3 SETS OF PASTEL COLOURED CLOTHES.
DO I HAVE PASTEL COLOURED CLOTHES?
OMGOMG...
FREAKING LIK CRAZY NOW.
THANK U GOD FOR MY SECOND CHANCE!!!!!!!!!
TANK U.
OMG!
AAAAHHHH.

2009-03-15T15:40:00.002+08:00

yay!!! i've gotten my lappy!!!!
and yay i didn get the sick pink one!!!!
triple yay!!! it's 1.9kg instead of 2.5kg!!!
but nay its a bit more costly.....
still, im so glad to have my own laptop!!
blogging on it right now....
i hope i can get the job though...
i knw i didn put out much variety in the casting but i was jus reli nervous!
first time ok!!!!!!!!!!!!
but im reli sure tt if i get a second chance, i'll really rock it!!!
hahaha.... then syanni will get a treat from me, as promised!
;DDD
i officially pronounce jc ppl dead. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
=x
too bad doc.
lol... =x =x=x
anyw, who's up for mahjong at john's????
been waiting for it since new yr.
its the march hols now!!! is anyone free at all???
gues nt...
haiz.

anyw i wan go simlim square to get laptop skins..
my laptop is kinda plain now..
i found this shop n it has quite nice skins tt arent too costly
http://lappyskins.blogspot.com
anyone wanna go wif me???
=)

2009-02-03T10:38:00.002+08:00

haha i havent blogged in a long while. too lazy =P
hmm so i gt into my first choice, international business at ngee ann.
=]
chances are i dunno any1 dere. T_T
new beginning....
and today is day2 for the jc ppl.
i feel amused when i try to picture my frenz looking blur and lost in the new environment. haha.
its a bit unbelievable tt 4yrs passed alrd.
when i can still rmb day one so clearly!!
it is sad tt we will find it hard to meet up for pool etc, cos whn they have hols, poly ppl r in sch n viceversa..
i dun reli wan a job tt i haf to go work everyday, but im so sick of shopping around. im jus reli bored.
nth much to do.
now i reli onli feel like doing 2 things.
play pool and go k box..
die im hooked on kbox.
nvm this is to compensate for not going for FOUR WHOLE YEARS.
no one believed me when i said that.
haha.
me n xann cnt be in the same sch again.
tt girl suddenly choose sp.
haiz.
oh and throughout the whole hols, so far, i spent abt 120bucks on clothes alrd!
but i tink my most prized posession is the punk star t shirt i bought.
i love the pic!!
i aspire to set up a shop like punk star, and design my clothes!!
better start saving $$ now. lols
oh and darn. the ezlink card fares are adult price now. T_T
money all fly to transportation.

sweet dreams, little queen
when u pee in bed,
its not clean.

lol..... tt i nev heard before. maybe my cousin composed it himself.
uh im having a headache again.
i tink i lack sleep

last nite my cousin left his fone at my hse.
and this morning, the alarm went off at 4am!!
ZZZ
and the alarm tone wasnt pleasant.
it was some rock song..

i feel very random now.
Z_Z
boo bahh gaaah
-_-
ok crazy girl is over and out

2008-12-28T15:10:00.002+08:00

2008 is ending!!
whyyyyyyyyyyy??
lets enjoy the last bits of the holiday while we can.
i still havnt done many things! like go k box, go east coast, go for dance lessons at o school...
and o lvl results are gonna be released in TWO WEEKS.
im getting scared.
plus a few nights ago i dreamt tt john n one guy was the top scorer. =.=
lol... i never reli thot of john as a genius so i've no idea how that happened.
and i got 12 points for L1R5.
which, considering how i blew my a maths and lit, isn too bad.
really, if i got 12 points, i'd be happy.
happyhappyhappy
deeeliriously happyy....
of cos i'd love a single digit.
but the more i think of it, the more i think its nt possible...
nvm.
dun wanna tink alrd.
i'll go work on the blogshop now.
reli gotta get everything done before sch reopens.
still gotta take pics of the shoes and advertise and all.
woots its gonna be fun....
;DDD

2008-11-28T17:27:00.002+08:00

prom came and went so fast... i thot can haf fun after it but safra was closed..
then on the taxi back home is like waves of regret and sadness kept washing over me like a stupid nasty black tide...
because i knew i missed my chance and i'll never have it again..
i just had to ask.
but so many times when i was going to, he walked away. then i thot nvm later.
then when i had the chance n he wasn walkin away, i thot nvm later.
i kept procrastinating.... and in the end, i had no more chances. the last chance i had was taken away due to safra being closed.
damn it.
when will this sea of regret dry up??????
it feels reli terrible.
and i hope he dun get the wrong idea.
the whole "dear" thing is jus a stupid joke. and it jus came about like a month ago.
i wish i could lose my memory manz......
then wun be so sian.

i hope u knw im not as okay as i seem.
i regret.
im sorry.
i hope u're nt angry with me.
urgh....

2008-11-16T18:52:00.002+08:00

its sunday.....
lol im at sylvia's house now.
we were watching ai qing mo fa shi on you tube jus now. lol
now its getting reli dark n i shld go home.
jus found out today from mervin some prom details.

24 nov
at swissotel merchant court
dinner starts arnd 6 pm
there will be cocktail

yup. now i got my dress alrd. its apple green!
i nid shoes. maybe silver.
and i went to get new specs n contacts yesterday.
turns out my right eye the degree shot up from 225 to 300. STUPID o lvels!
and now the right eye has 50degree of astigmatism.
awesome. i shall never study so hard again.
spoil my eyesight.
looks like i use my right eye more or sth. =.=
cos my left eye is still 225 degrees..
ooo 7 pm alrd.
i better go home for dinner.
altho i dun tink i can eat.
i ate quite a lot of chocs n twisties here. =x
hope i dun fall sick heh.
buhbye.

2008-11-14T17:56:00.002+08:00

YAY o levels are over...
hooooooooooooooo......!
yea now im at my aunts place watching her help suxann do her makeup and hair... it looks pretty good..
all smoky eyes..
lol
i stilll haf tons of stuff to buy!
shoes n nail polish..
clutch i borrowing...
dress bought alrd frm daniel yam....
im so relieved o lvls are over..
yet its hard to believe.
am i truly free??
yesterday had fun watchin madagascar..
too bad some ppl had to miss it becos someone insisted on a morning swim n didn bother to charge the handphone..
played para for the first time this year..
rusty!!!
and blew my money on pizza hut.. thanks to two budding promoters cy n zj.
bloody hell.
oh well...
it was fun anyw...
but ran into ten thousand ppl ytd..
like the whole of nh is out shopping..
including my cell ppl hu i forgot were going far east too..
giving me the very "you better show up more often" look.
i jus gave a weak smile. 8D
hurhur.

2008-10-13T10:24:00.002+08:00

7 days to o lvl!!!! what the hell am i doing??????
what the hell are WE DOING?!?!?!?!
me sylvia zijian n chunyung are now at sylvia's house with the intention to study.
but guess wad.
the minute we came, we went to the kitchen n start raiding the fridge. then tour arond the house. then chunyung was playing on the flabeloss machine and vibrating his ass.(which we took a video of)then now the guys are playing ps3 and im online. like wtf man. we're gonna die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its a bad idea. sylvia's house is like a entertainment centre.
haiz.
anyway past few days super gloomy...
its like the mind isn thinking abt the whole incident as i bury myself with work but the heart is.
i dunno wad to do.
but i gues im not the onli broken hearted person going for o lvls... i know of two other guys.
hais....
nvm we'll pull through, and after os, nth will matter anymore except having fun and finding a job.
plus, we wont be in the same school as the persons who caused us so much grief.
for now, i really wan2 play ps3 but the guys are still at it!!!!!!!!
RAAAR.

2008-09-29T08:54:00.000+08:00

ah im finally online. o levels are coming soooooo fast...
i dunno how prepared i am..... im getting a bit scared.... T_T
hais....
and stupid junaidah didn come sch again today....
how am i gonna pay for my prom??????????
if thanks to her i will be unable to go, i tink i will reli jus kill her.
k bell ring alrd... gtg. :P

i love u pig.

fotos!!!

2008-08-08T23:40:00.005+08:00

2008-06-18T12:41:00.014+08:00

hols r ending!!!! its back to sch soon and steps closer to prelims and olvl!
anyw im feelin a lil nuts so..
list of celebrity guys i tink r cute/hot/attractive!!! :DDDD
prepare for eye candy! for me anyw....

wu zun

dennis oh or somethin...?

zai xi

rain

L! <3

luo zhixiang

mingdao

chengxi!

julian hee and qi yu wu

Joshua ang

JR!

actually theres more but im lazy....

heehee.

2008-06-13T11:41:00.006+08:00

i reli wan2 go k box..
but its like cost $$
so.... there's a prob...
how i wish i can get a job la.
but onli aft o lvls, bt then who wld wana work aft studying so hard for o lvls?? will want2 play right?
but no $ to do so...

anyw.
RIHANNA- TAKE A BOW

rihanna's reli hot! and i love her tattoo. hehe!

and here's one by a girl.. she's good!!!!

watchin her sing makes me feel like goin k box even mre....
T.T

omg!!! i wans learn this on the piano!!!! ciara's like a boy! this guy is pro!

this too! when u look me in the eyes-jonas brothers

2008-06-12T14:58:00.000+08:00

2008-06-12T14:24:00.003+08:00

ok the previous post was a lil redundant.

lolx.

holidays r ending!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

went out wif my darlings ytd.

shall try to use the neos we took as blog pic :)

thx cindy for being soooooo fast in preparing the fotos.

LOVE YA!!!!

ate some stupid SOUR cupcorn.

walau eh nev eated sour corn b4.

spoil alrd still sell.

ass.

jus now while going home at je interchange, i was walking to go sit at this seat.

then tis auntie beat me to it. nvm beside her got one more.

BUT SHE PUT HER HAND THERE TO RESERVE IT FOR HER FREN.

nvm beside beside still got seat. then that fren. auntie number2 put HER hand on tt seat to reserve it for their other fren.

no more seats.

i got very pissed and jus rolled my eyes.

den go stand by the door.

they dun look singaporean and speak in some other language.

mayb frm vietnam or wad la.

they sure catch on fast on the "auntie customs" here.

-_-"'

i tink recently im jus one pizza hut addict la.

i ate pizza hut twice in a week last week.

gonna eat it again on mon.

WHEE!!!!!!

yea right n get fat.

who cares.

I'LL EAT HAPPILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-06T14:37:00.001+08:00

holy hell.
second week of hols alrd....
ending.
i feel like im not accomplishing as much as i dreamt of doing.
oh well....
i dunno wat to say.
wan2 say alot of stuff.
but not here.
ok bye.

2008-05-18T17:46:00.002+08:00

i've just seen the WORST video ever.
how did it even win first prize?
it has no plot no nothing. it onli teaches one tiny moral value:
don't lie.
anyway my cousin is the lead actress.
the video wasnt meant to be funny but i laughed hysterically at the parts where she was actually skipping and pushing her chair in.
so here's the url if u r interested to watch.
www.creatusevents.com/dvfest/

ugh im having a headache.
and i jus grew a strand of white hair.
whee....
june holi and chinese o level is nxt week... which brings more stress,more white hair, more headache, more eyebags.
okok im complaining. shall stop here.

2008-04-21T17:17:00.006+08:00

Eric Chow's Party on 5aprilo8

me n wx

whee! it's us!

me n eric! :D

ex lasallians

joshua... act cute...or stroke??? :X

MAD PIC!

us girls wif eric... kinda dark

me n jiahao

candid shot

2008-04-21T16:40:00.005+08:00

oh gosh. how long haf i NOT been online....????

sian.

this will be a photo post. :D

*braces herself*

did i mention how much i love having photos on my blog but HATE uploading??? D:

AIkido Grading

me and foosing, wif xann in backgrnd

me n fs

xann!

me n fs

xann

weilun(right)

rayson!

2008-03-03T15:32:00.002+08:00

wahh nearly one month nev blog.
kk im back.
CT1 results were quite satisfying.
onli failed two subjects. hoho.
and i nev get an A2 for ss before.. so YAYS!!!! REJOICE!!!!!!
and A2 for e maths!!!! heheee.
ohoh n B4 for a maths!
but then the logic is all wrong now.
so many subjects r suddenly better than my english.
even chinese. SHOCKS.
ah nvm.
:]
kkays gonna go do geog proj now.
oh and i cnt wait for the anniv dinner!!!!
AAAAAAHHHH
:)

2008-02-05T18:35:00.000+08:00

2008-02-05T17:12:00.000+08:00

ohgosh...
nth much to say...
i havent been a gd person so far this yr.
flunking tests... altho pass most but jus pass nia.
how can right...
im jus plain lazy n tired.
slept at 1pm last night to study chem in the end didn even cover macromolecules...
zzzzzZZZZZZzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZ

giant lizard
im here for u
i knw wat u're going thru.
giant lizard
pleez dun stray away
our frenship shld nt die this way..

2008-01-29T17:34:00.000+08:00

yay im finally online.
gonna type in a few poems i wrote in the past three weeks...

written on 11/1/08

unbridled:
love, tongue
said some things i shouldn't
could've betrayed my feelings.

i don't know...
but when the words came out,
all of your expressions
were unexplainable.
It made me feel that i have gone too far.

It's like you knew i wasn't really joking.
Part of it was from my heart.
That you knew i felt hurt.
It made me feel that i have gone too far.

I'm sorry I'm sorry
but what i said to you
wasn't meant for you.
some was for him too.
your expression and response,
it made me feel that i have gone too far.

Can't you tell? Can't you tell?
No you musn't. Yes you must.
both of you don't know.
my unbridled love has hurt me so.

-----------------------------------------------

Smoking

i've started smoking
since a little while ago
the first puff got me choking
strange and queer

second puff and i was hooked
And it hurt me more than i knew
it would

smoking makes me happy,
it satisfies my crave.
Smoking aslo hurts me,
my heart's in a desolate cave.

The one thing i love,
is the same thing i hate.
My predicament fits me like a glove
I think i fully deserve.

Blame myself for my immaturity.
why did i take the first puff?
now i can't seem to stop.
I'm addicted to you.

**note:PLEEZ do not see this poem in the literal sense. becos ps:i hate smokers

yea nowadays a bit emo.
wad to do.
but im ok la. onli occasionally think of...that.
and then woots the emo shadow hits me.
bye for now.
im still smoking........

2008-01-11T09:22:00.000+08:00

Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and
I'm needing
Everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful,
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me,
I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't
Even see
Anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love,
He's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me,
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes,
So perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She'd better hold him tight,
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone,
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

'Cause He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up,
But there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into.

Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see

2007-12-31T22:49:00.000+08:00

WAHAHA. punishment for cheating

group photo! :D

best female costume.

the spider that caught fire....

oli and me in dixin's witch hat

wah! who's behind me?! scared-d.

jane stabbing herself

justin...

gwendolyn!!

vera and me

liwen and jane

ms ong n her bf... @_@

gladys,nachi,me

olivia and grace..

my personal stylist!!! :D

wad i turned up as...

charis n me

grace n me

me grace n charis...

2007-12-31T21:29:00.000+08:00

NOOOOOO!!!!!!!
TWO DAYS.
AND ALL HELL BREAKS LOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SERIOUSLY.
I'M SO READY TO BE A TORTURED PERSON NXT YR.WHICH STARTS IN LESS THAN 3HRS.
shucks......!!!
i tink nxt yr i shall be a no life nerd who studys eat study slp.
bt actually, i tink i'll onli last tat way for a week.
den im back to being a pig.
no mre fun rollerblading either....
:(
depressing la.
dammit.
onli thing to look forward to nxt yr is likely to be:
1)weekly aikido
2)aikido anniv dinner
3)for Os to be over
4)sec4 graduation night

can the world pls end NOW?????
why go thru o levels when we are going to die anyway?
@_@

ARGH.
the t-shirt's right, kevin.
studying sucks.

walau.
poked casey's stomach and my finger hurts. stupid muscles la.

2007-12-27T17:11:00.000+08:00

YAYYYY!!!!!
went to buy my skates yesterday wif xann and kevin at bukit timah plaza....
woots.
i lurrve my skates...
so much quieter than aaron's old blades.
plus they dun cut me.
aw heck, its gonna leave a scar.
last few days of holidays, ppl. enjoy it while u can.
cos its on to the Os nxt yr.
HELP.
IM NOT READY!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
had to get that out.
lols.

gotten really emo
when i gotten home.
black sinking into the center of my soul.
it's because of a someone;
someone i adore.
someone couldn't know,couldn't tell

emo's not wad i really do.
but thanks to someone,
i felt more black than blue.
first time ever,
i thought i needed to cry.
but however,
i've sent some rules i like to go by:

"never weep
never cry
never go out of your way
'cos of a guy,
for he doesn't know
how much you love him so
why should you be the sacrifice?"

talked to a friend,
made me feel better.
next morning,
it came back altogether.

Take this away!
Take this away!
i want something more than now,
but i may lose this now forever.
i guess i'm quite happy the way things are.
i'm afraid of making the same mistakes;
Afraid i'll destroy something that's so great.

I guess i'll take this blackness into the fire with me.
And wait till it burns away...

(DAMN. i think that kid frm my tuition passed me his flu. been sneezing i was typing.)

2007-12-12T21:29:00.000+08:00

wa... my leg now has this big long cut....
thx to the rollerblades...
sian....

"did u dye your hair?"
"of coz not. *smiles* i went swimming."
right............
y did he haf2 change????

2007-11-29T19:00:00.000+08:00

Teenagers- my chemical romance

They're gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you, son
So they can watch all the things you do

Because the drugs never work
They gonna give you a smirk
'cause they got methods
In keeping you clean
They gonna rip up your heads
Your aspirations to shreads
Another cog in the murder machine

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone
But not me

The boys and girls in the clique
The awful names that they stick
You're never gonna fit in much, kid
But if you're troubled and hurt
What you got under your shirt
Will make them pay for the things that they did
[ Teenagers lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone
But not me

Oh yeah!

They say all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone
But not me

All together now,
Teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone
But not me

Teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone
But not me

2007-11-29T17:02:00.000+08:00

yesyes the future is secure!
got jobs to last for the whole hols....
ahh...
im doing flyer giving for my aunt..
and standing in for 2days for suxann as mascot coordinator while she goes penang..
yupyup.
wonder how the zoukout party is like....
tho i doubt i'll be allowed to go...
hope grace can go then she can tell me abt it...
:D

im shocked to hear
you i hold dear
has turned to the grey side.
why did this happen?
all this,
plus when you turned away from our father in heaven.
i looked up to you.
i enjoyed your sensibility.
it was always nice to see you around.
you comforted me at times
and we spoke of interesting topics;
thngs that matter and dont
now you are barely around.
no, no;
this cant be you!
where have you gone?
come back;
we all miss you.
do you not see the grief in your parents eyes?
why do you drink till you throw up?
what else do you do outside?
we miss you.
please return soon.

2007-11-15T14:48:00.000+08:00

uhh cant wait to be 16...
like so many jobs require u to be 16.
hello... 15... 16... no big diff...
anyw i tink nxt yr aft o levels i tink i wan go work at build-a-bear! :D
damn cute la...
^^
as for the halloween photos..
wil hafta wait.
and if any of u have the fotos, can u pls send to me?

ah well its off to genting for the weekend...
whee...
ohoh psle results coming out soon.
my cousin is aiming for 271.
well he's smart maybe it'll happen.
and he wants to go to hwa chong.
all my cousins frm my mom's side are like so smart.
i feel a bit... lag behind them.
at least my psle score of 246 still not bad ba. altho it is the second lowest among my cousins.
the lowest is 236.
the most hiong one is like chloe; all freaking A*s... and i onli got one.
.....
nvm nvm.

and hopefully wai kit stil wan2 teach me n xann magic..
speaking of which, i haf2 find $$ for the riderback cards.
zzzz.
see la.. the flyer designer take so long to design them. till now still nth...
blah! might as well ask ME to design. :D

tats all for now......

2007-10-31T08:56:00.003+08:00

AAHAAHHAHAHAHAHA......!
halloween party's today!!!!!
cant wait!!!
but i scared i over dress....
ha well, halloween is abt celebrating weirdness afterall.
yay!
see you guys there! =>
oh and lucks to all taking o level chinese today.

2007-10-29T15:17:00.000+08:00

so many teachers leaving..
dedicated to MR KAM YONG CHUAN:

never miss the water
until it's gone.
didn't experience
or stop to feel
your teacherly love
that distance came to steal.

the final handshake
the only one
firm and sincere.
made me want to shed more than a single tear.

the final pat on the back
the only one
encouraging and true.
makes me feel lucky
to have a teacher like you.

the final photo
the only one
please come back to see us,
your naughty ones.

haizz. yup. thats that.

2007-10-29T08:54:00.000+08:00

HALLOWEEN!!!!

cant wait man!

i alrd painted my nails a bloody red. :D

so yes i'm going gothic.

but i duno how to make it scarier....

and i searched for pics hoping to get inspiration...

and this....

...is wad i found. but obviously i dont have anyhing like this! also wun be caught dead in anything like tat.

moving on...

this looks completely retarded..... ><

IS THERE NTH HELPFUL ON THE INTERNET?!?!

this looks ok... but not doable.........

i think wats impt and makes an impact is the makeup on the face.....

but i cant draw!!!!!!

haiz.

will jus haf2 find a way....

@.@

2007-10-24T14:00:00.000+08:00

halloween party's a week away! :D
i tink im going as some gothic freak. with cut marks.
duno wat else to go as le.
im broke again. and i dun understand WHY.
sighs.
anyways, things are going crazy again.
first loads of overwhelming joy, then crushing disappointments, then im jus bumming along.
so yesterday i went swimming to cheer myself up and try to get a tan.
and today my skin is red... then faded to brown...
haha..
ooh but yesterday was kinda freaky.
cos these bunch of guys stalked us aft swimming then finally they gave up.
scary.
why do some ppl haf nth better to do?
summore threw an ice cube at our direction to get our attention?
hello grow up.

pictures! :D

dedicated to kazunori amy:

tell him straight
what's on your mind.
dont bother hinting;
he won't get the sign.

If he really wants that girl
so he can feel good(maybe),
you don't have to stick around and be his baby.

Or perhaps he still wants his dear friend around.
But hey,
it don't mean you gotta be his clown.

if nothing changes,
you'll have to choose.
Stay. Slip away;
since he refuse,
And wants two girls to him amuse.

How can you trust a guy
who leaves his friend's heart to die?
Her obsession is clear:
minnie mouse and super mario.
still being led on.

I know you love him around.
but it dun mean you gotta be his clown.

2007-10-08T10:32:00.000+08:00

im super happy now.
EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!!!!!!!!!
over i tink im suffering from post mugging syndrome...
i feel weird sittin down and watching tv cos my mom isnt yelling at me to get up and study.
nehneh~
im free.
i shld enjoy myself before the results come back. who knows whether i'll slip into a state of depression.
would like to thank jia ji for the presents.
its amazing u can actually get the size right cos my own mother gets it wrong sometimes.
haha.
i wonder wad foo sing got?
when u guys wan2 ice skate...?
we've been wanting to go for ages le..

anyw, cnt wait for gwen's halloween party!!!!
whole of 3o8'o7 invited. but details not fully planned yet...
and since its a halloween party, it shld take place on 31 oct
AND AND AND
most impt....
DRESS SCARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

perfect way to get out of my post mugging syndrome, really.
:D

2007-09-05T13:30:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey! at tiong baru plaza now... doing geog proj...
today was eventful...
and it was onli 11.30am whn it all ended.
wat happened was.. i was wlkin to sch wif estella... then tis old lady approached us and asked us in hokkien how go police station...
then we dunno and the old lady told us tat tis man was trying to force her to give him 2k.
since dunno then we went away.
when we walked away we saw tis old man following her but dunno if its tink too much anot la.
so i suggested we accompany her and call 999 for her.
then some passerbys told us how to get there aft we called 999 to find out the location.
"my first time calling 999"quoted frm estella.
hahaha.....
then walk damn far to the police station and the aunty told us wad happened.
the man knocked on her door abt 2 or 3 days ago. he said he was sent frm the RC to give her a prize..
so she open the door and he forced her to buy cooking pots for 2k. she didn wan then he jus keep forcing her and made her give him her thumbprint.
then he said she better not go to the police or he'll get back at her. bloody idiot.
when we reach police station we waited DAMN long b4 the policeman helped her make a report.
that police man looks like he's sick of his job liddat.
and talks to the aunty in a totally sian way which is kinda rude.
he seems quite pissed tat she cnt rmb a lot of things. like hello. she's 80 yrs old.
lets c hw much YOU can rmb when u're eighty.
anyway the poor old lady was very worried abt this. she cried at the police station and she kept asking me n estella will anything happen to her since she made a report.
i tink that horrible person reli scared her.
shes very poor thing... she dun dare tell her children cos they'll scold her.
then she onli lives wif her daughter, hu is mentally unstable ever since she could not pass her exams.
and she dare not wonder around by herself cos she dunno how to go home.
she cnt even rmb wat block she stays in or her house number....
i feel reli sad for her...
why do some kids leave their old parents alone at home? tats super dangerous.
i pray tat she'll be ok...
and that asshole will get wat he deserves.
AMEN!
:)

2007-08-21T16:04:00.000+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
ADRIAN TAN HAS A BAND!
rachel told me de...
...but the band is weird..
um..
its uncoordinated.
WOOOOOOOoooo i love adrian tan!!!!!
lols.he's the lead singer btw...

2007-08-21T15:42:00.000+08:00

im reli liking netball.
heh.
today was playin wif seniors again.
annabelle is gd...
seems like ppl gd in one sport equals gd in ALL sports.
i knw ppl liddat:
suxann
grace

i wish i were liddat.
too bad tis yr no dance performance to put up...
cindy!!!!
i want leh!!!!!!!!!!!!
now supa sian..
foo sing n jj lets go ice skate tis wk kay? :)
whee.
hope i dun fall too much.
last time had many bruises on my knee.
oh and i duno if i can go.
...my results...... T___T
wad happened.
i study.
still liddat.
haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiz.
c'est la vie?
urgh...
nvm!
i'll start studying for EOYs....
...which are in 6 wks time!!!!
RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>:D

2007-08-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

aikido vs taekwondo!!

aikido vs kick boxing!!! this one rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aikido vs karate

aikido vs street gang!

2007-08-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

tmr celebrate national day in sch.
sian i dun wan go.rather sleep in and study.
but no.
for some reason my mom ask me go.
shes strange. always talkin abt how precious time is and there she is, forcing me to waste my time and forgo my sleep.
i jus dun get it.

cinderella-tata young

2007-08-01T18:14:00.000+08:00

im finally online... sighs.
today heard abt the koreans held hostage in afghanistan...
felt so sad....
their pastor got shot already n some died...
haiz.
so aft sch a whole bunch of us stayed back to pray for them..
when i got to my aunts hse, heard frm charis that their deadline (pun not intended) has been extended and so far no killings... which is GREAT! :)
i hope they wont be tortured or anything..
i hope they'll be found soon....
imagine how their families feel too..
well the world is ending.
so many floods this yr... more terrorists...
BUT lets still be happy.
life isnt meant to be torturous.
right now trying to get a job...
i wan give tuition to pri sch kids.
wanlim told me tat her aunt pays tis bukit batok sec guy 400dollars to teach her pri 1 cousin 3 subjs...
he reli profit alot.
i need to save up money to go for the aikido anniversary thing.
siiiigh.
i wan2 go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sunday aikido fun as usual.
and shari, pls, stop whinning.
i didn do that irimi tenkkan on u that hard.
u haf to increase ur tolerance of pain, girl.
luckily u not blue belt yet....
aft aikido, went to haf lunch wif suxann and two other guys...
actually a whole bunch of guys but they nev sit wif us cos no space. (suxann dun be angry over that kinda guy...rather sit alone than wif us... :] )
when the regent guy shared abt y he joined aikido i thot it was hilarious.
but actually its gd to knw hw to defend urself... especially in schs like regent. no offence.

last nite stayed up so late to study chem.
AND FOR WAT?
to be postponed til tmr.
so tired. sighs.
nearly keep falling asleep during tuition today.

i wonder how did JOCSY do...
hope they win and bring glory to 308.
308 may be the so called "arts" class, but it dun mean we're STUPID.
gosh we having that new ss teacher. jus becos ppl tink we're stupid.
according to bettie.
now im REALLY gonna fal asleep during ss..
i told this to ms sathi and she said "charlene, u already fall asleep during my class..."
yea true, but at least she has the skill to wake me and keep me awake.
that new teacher?
jus poke me onli.
yea thanks. very helpful.
=.=
rawrrawrrawr.

my name is charlene. not cheryl.. or cherlene..
why cnt u rmb?

2007-07-16T15:14:00.000+08:00

scammed.

again.

we were promised $60 dollar pizza hut vouchers.

wad do we get?

$60 KFC vouchers.

like.

WHO THE HELL WANS TO SPEND $60 ON KFC??!?!?!!

liars.

nvm the fact that the prize was supposed to be sth else.

nvm that we got the same amount of vouchers as the other team despite winning.

oh no.

they changed it to KFC VOUCHERS.

siao.

sighs.

forget it la.

lets jus find a day, to celebrate, and enjoy our well deserved reward.

anyways.

the short film was good, no?

hee.

those who wish to get a copy can get it frm charis.

but u mus supply ur own cd.

recently, i keep trying to decide whether i shld cut my hair short.

should i?

i wan cut it like... arnd melodie's length.

or maybe like victoria beckham's bob.

but very risky.

if it screws it'll take a year and a half to grow back.

scary.

2007-07-07T11:49:00.000+08:00

ytd was sucha fun day.
i almost missed its campfire.
im glad i went.
its super fun and high and i love it when everyone dances tgt...
but who should come and rain on my parade but ms ong?
goodness she shooed like one quarter of the ppl away la.
then me grace and eckerene tried to sneak in again and again.
huishan didn wan2 join at first but she joined in aft awhile.
so jus had fun among us and hug joyce one last time.
aft awhile we left.
went to mac wif eckie and huishan.
talked abt all kinds of stuff.
was fun..
then went home.
now im at grace's place typing this.
doing mr luke chong's 7 wonders thing.
actually i find tat mr chong looks like a cross between yishuo and william.
hoho.
but he seems very critical of everything.
why is he even in nan hua?
go be lawyer la!
so weird.
graduated liao stil dun wan go be lawyer.
i feel tat im getting mre n mre vain.
like last time i didn reli bother dressing up for anything.
but recently i seem to keep wanting to dress.
haha.
another example is tat i didn like heels at first. in fact i was against wearing heels cos it'll make me taller and theres no need for that. plus its hard to walk in.
but now i find tat i am mre open to it.
i jus got two pairs of heels which are pointed at the toes.
one white one n one black one.
well better go do the proj nw.
byee!

2007-07-02T08:45:00.000+08:00

damn sian.
ytd no aikido due to youth day.
there dun seem to be nice games to play around here anymore.cnt play audi.
nvm shall try getamped.
hmm..
can i jus say that sec1s are super frenly n cute?
i feel so welcomed by them.
really.
right now trying to decide...
go for it or not..
going means i'll haf2 adapt all over again..
but if i dun go, i will be stuck and be a runaway...
argh.
u noe, my aunt jus said she saw a white hair on my head.
great...
the stress u get frm everyday life.

2007-06-28T19:29:00.000+08:00

help me.
im addicted to youtube thx to parapara.
parapara?
no, its ok.
dun help me.

2007-06-28T18:13:00.000+08:00

today had maths test. i think i did well....
it sometimes pay to do r hmwk last minute-evrything is stil fresh...! :D
stoopid ms ong. take off 6mins of my time.
actually made no diff. i finished at abt 1.40.
nehnehz~!
so stoopid luhh. today ALL COM LABS OPENED.
except lab3. damn.
now charis and the rest are at her hse REDOING it all.
i cldnt join them.
oh well at least we haf some idea how to arrange the shots...
i hope we win.
i think we will la..
i tink we are the onli class who entered. hoho.
good la.... cos i want to win. hee.

currently trying to learn this one.
learnt so far:boomboomfire
try me

2007-06-26T19:32:00.000+08:00

last sunday was fun.
i got my blue belt! and a cert.
:)
no double promo tho. none of us got it.
nvm.
it was weird to get so many ppl promoted at once.
but i gues we are the lucky group.
cos we are the batch wif the most people.
so can learn together.
and make frenz..
so now we learn new kind of locks and haf to do a painful forward roll slam frm now on. ouch. and obstacles.
there are two newly joined whites, who unfortunately for them haf to join us in our new training.
tat day for grading i was really nervous....
then my number was called once and i was kinda shocked.
"number 12, u are doing omote. not ura."
shitshit.
then i did it again then "mm. good."
whew.
i was reli lucky, cos suxann was my partner, even tho they mixed us all up. :)
we stayed back to watch the nxt batch of whites and the blues.
there was this brown belt guy that i thot was gd looking.
then i told tis to suxann and she was like =.-" "got meh?"
then she asked jia ji. "got meh?" he also said.
then when i took a closer look after awhile, i guez he isnt so gd looking aft all.
when he came to sit near me, jia ji leaned over and was like "is ur heartbeat increasing?"
-_-
aft grading we went for lunch wif some others.
today, mr chew became our new co-form!!!
yay!!
he's reli nice so im glad.
glad its not a MEAN teacher.
haf2 edit the video stuff tmr.
hope we win.
WE MUST WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WE HAF TO!!!!!
OUR EFFORTS MUST NOT GO TO WASTE!!!

2007-06-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

got so tired of not having my posts published..
so heres a new blog.

old blog address is

miyako-blacklights1.blogspot.com
so anyways...

my long awaited comic is complete and BEAUTIFUL....

heh heh.

looking back i realise how lame it was.

bt hu cares. it was fun!

ohohoh aikido grading is tis sunday!!!!!!!!!!!!!

doublepromodoublepromodoublepromo.....................

wanted to haf slp over but suxann's mom pointed out a good point..

we need to be in top form on the night before grading &a slp over would hinder us...

she has a point..

so its cancelled.

ohwell.